Make Haste

Went for meditation class, some good points were discussed. Stuff that people who strive for understand and truth probably already understand. It's good to be reminded of the basics. Unfortunately I always come to the same conclusion; that love is never something that I can have. It's never going to happen for me. If this is true then what will it mean ? I'm pretending to move forward but deep down I can't see any future. I will never be able to trust anyone. (It's selfish I know, I think there is a right time to shout and not be silent.)

I was supposed to go view a house today. I just sat in the Forum drinking coffee. When I returned to my room I saw thirteen messages sent to my mobile. I should care but I don't.

Making miso soup with sea vegetables and rice, maybe I will feel OK after, and stop being such a miserable fool.

Boldy is Boldy

Hey !!! Boldy I saw you looking.. thought I had lost you there.

Had to hand in presentation slides for my talk on Open Source. We will be the last group to speak on Monday. Been revising the C++ and messing with functions and parsing by reference.

Today was dark.. again :/ at one point I went back to bed and lay in a tight ball listening to `Loveless', the My Bloody Valentine Album.

Off to view potential rented housing tomorrow, fun fun fun... I really don't understand people at all

Good Morning

Once at the Oriental Arts Centre I overheard a conversation about one of the martial arts instructors ex-girlfriends. She kept turning-up to his class. Surely this was very inconsiderate of her to be where she knew he would be. She was not a considerate person...

If I knew I was to go somewhere I'm not welcome, I would be fully in the wrong. I should expect some consequences from this action.

Karamoon: Photos From Afghanistan

Karamoon: Photos From Afghanistan

Mental Leakage_ Breaks down in a Test of Life

Pretty Rain CLoud Friend

Up with a shower then cup-a-tea in time for C++ lecture. We did basic C++ functions. Passing by value, passing by reference. In the lecture things were explained in a simple manner, it's good not get bogged down with complexity. Sometimes functions and pointers become confusing. There's no need to think of it as memory address space at this level, just say 'pass by value.'

The weather was turning-out nice again so I went for a walk in Earlham Park. Stopped to do some meditation in the garden. Just then, I felt light rain on my face, looking up I saw a fluffy rain cloud. The rain was quite pleasant, and I knew it would soon pass by. It is right to give praise; I thank-you 'Pretty Rain Cloud' it means more to me than you know. I hope I see you again soon..Hheh_wtf ? WWww

Keep getting the day wrong, for some reason I thought it was Friday. I caught the bus into town to go to the Buddhist centre. Oh Yeah, it's Thursday !! Fuck it !! I'll just wonder around for a bit, then come back to campus.

Spent the rest of the day in the Lab, messing with C++ functions...

The past couple of days have been a mixture of great joy and unsurprising hopelessness.

All harsh language in this text is purely for effect, and does not accuretly reflect the true feelings of contributer_

Shine like the Sun

Such a good day, the weather has been beautiful. Bumped into Yuko today on the way to my lecture. I was so happy, I haven't seen Yuko in a long while. She showed me some great pictures she had taken, of the Crocuses in Earlham Park.

In my lecture we were supposed to be discussing a technical paper, the conversation went wildly off topic, as they started to discuss religion and science. I just sat grinning to myself, I was having such a good day...

Back at the flat, maintenance had been fixing door handles. Shawn had been cooking in the kitchen, when he returned to his room, he discovered they had finished and locked his door along with his room key inside. I had to lend him some trainers so he could walk down to the security lodge. He invited me to go out tomorrow to the L.C.R. it's not really my thing. We also talked about getting a house sorted for next year.

They can't Take that Away, from Me

Went to the cathedral for morning service. There was a guest giving the sermon, 'Father Gregory Fruehwirth, Guardian of the Julian of Norwich, Wisconsin USA, it was good though at first I was a little mislead as to what he was saying.

I came to remember a TRUTH today that I had forgotten. Still can't concentrate, Still sometimes thinking of the ultimate solution.

The Less We Say About it the Better

(broken keyboard) Had one of my strange nightmares last night. For some reason when I awoke, I had the feeling that I had to go to the train station, so I did. It wasn't until I was on the bus traveling into Norwich, I realised a thought from my dream, that was of someone saying to me, "I saw you at the train station." I don't know what I thought I would find there, and no surprise, nothing! I just had this odd feeling that I had to go. One thing I noticed is the new barrier they put across the concourse.

Walked to the Forum to do some maths and a little C programming. The music they play in that place is dire, still you can't complain, can you?

Back in my room I received a phone call. "We're outside, come out." I didn't actually know who it was, and I hadn't arranged to meet anyone. I looked outside and there was no-one there- Eh? After a couple of minutes I took another look outside to see Adam and Chris; two of my course mates. Apparently we had arranged to go look at a house to rent. They have asked me to move in with them, mainly because they cant find anyone and I'm their last choice, as Maginde's parents told him he has to remain on campus next year.

We walked bloody miles through housing estates to find the house, which was currently occupied by three Chinese people. After knocking we entered, I felt a bit weird, it was eleven in the morning and they were still in their pajamas eating breakfast. They still had a Christmas tree in their front room Heh_ Well anyway, the place was in a bad area, and was too small.

We sat on the side of the road waiting for the bus back into town. Chris kept playing the song, 'Don't worry be happy' from his mobile; it was like being in a badly made film.

Before going our separate ways Chris and Adam bought hot dogs. While waiting in the queue we received some abuse from some Chavs.

Adam and I returned to the UEA to sit in my room watching "Monkey Magic", Yes another productive day..

Act your Age

Went to an early math lecture, it was crap. Travelled into Norwich with some friends to go eat at Chopsticks. I was the oldest out of the three of us by about 100 years. Came home, slept alot.

I like Your Pole

Attempted to update my CV. There's just an endless list of rubbish jobs, done previously. Yesterday there was mention of part-time work in an office.

Met Steve in the CMP common room to discuss our presentation. We didn't get much done, the presentation has to be a convincing argument on switching UEA education and research software to open source.

I mentioned:

chaos computer club CCCTV
Richard STAllman
Linus Torvald
freshmeat.net
gnu

I don't think anyone listened or I didn't explain properly.



A young girl sat in front of me on the bus today. I mention this because I was nearly violently sick..Heh. Her perfume was so stRONG!! At first not too bad, but the more I tried not to breath the worse it got. I actually felt ill and had a headache, I guess I could have just moved to another seat, but I didn't want to offend. All day the smell was impregnated into my mind, even after shower I could taste like it had invaded my internal organs, no exaggeration.

Went for coffee and martial arts. At the coffee shop a woman asked me what was in my bag. When I explained it was a Bo staff I felt I had to explain further. "It's for martial arts." She then started saying sorry and looked uncomfortable. Then she wanted to know what martial arts, lucky enough it was my turn in the queue to be served, I dodged the question.

At Budo I was shit, I cant even master the basics. It's good to be very critical of yourself, but, every week I get worse.

Now I Want to be Your Dog

Had absolutely nothing to do today, well, not officially. Today I was determined to find work. Any old crap will do, 'cept no chemicals errr... no killing animals hmmm.. no making of electronic devices designed to monitor people. OK.. I'll just say I'll do anything, and when the job they offer me turns-out to be crap, I can just walk away.

I went to the job centre again today, the less said the better. The place is like a refugee camp.

Went to the employability office, on campus. No help, just look, "we've got a computer and here's our website."

Spent the rest of the day reading security related papers, and pretending I was dead.

Imposter-able

After a fantastic early mornings walk, I had a great breakfast of honey toast and Lapsang tea then orange juice. I spent the day inquiring in shops about work. Most people just laughed. I'm rapidly running-out of money. I have also secretly been boiling with anger inside. Luckily it;s only on the inside, despite it being Saturday and Norwich very busy, I had no trouble.

Went for a walk around Earlham park lunch time. I think it might be something I will do everyday from now on.

The internet is down in my room, so I;ve had to hack a wireless connection. I'm standing on the balcony trying to get a good signal. Oh, my mobile rang. That never happens, what a surprise, wrong number!!!

THE BADGER PARADE IS LOOKING GOOD, SO FAR !!!
I been listening to this song today, over and over...

Sly Fox

I was going to spend the day looking for a Part-Time job. There's no point in asking face-face at the local supermarkets, they all have applications online.

One application involved a personality test...obviosly it wasn't too bad. Here's the result:



Agreeableness

Your score of 9 on the Agreeableness scale means that you are actually a very sensitive person. You are probably quite an emotional individual in the sense that you are aware of your own and other people's feelings. You would almost certainly place the needs and feelings of your colleagues at the top of your priorities. Indeed, you would generally be seen as a caring and compassionate person who wanted to put people and their needs first. Clearly, this suggests that you would be at your best where relationships and empathy were important, but it could also mean that you sometimes find it quite difficult to deal with colleagues or customers who might be less sensitive in their manner.
Conscientiousness

You have scored 4 on the Conscientious scale. This indicates that you might not always be particularly organised or structured in your approach to work. You might not be particularly concerned with procedural matters that you believe are unnecessary or unimportant, and you could occasionally overlook or ignore the small regulations or details that you see as irrelevant. You might well tend to concern yourself with what you see as the broader aspects of your role, rather than with the small and detailed tasks of your everyday duties. Most of the people who are successful in roles at B&Q stores have a high regard for procedures and getting details right, but you might find some of these requirements to be quite restrictive.
Conformity

You have achieved a score of 6 on the scale of Conformity. This suggests that you are a fairly orthodox and conventional person who conforms to the accepted rules of social behaviour. You are likely to be comfortable in both formal and informal atmospheres and probably would not have a very strong preference for one over the other. You are likely to prefer changes in the work-place to be small and gradual rather than large and fast. Because you would value the best aspects of established ways and techniques you would probably be wary of anything that appeared to be too unconventional. Even so, you are probably not the kind of person who actively resists change, providing that you can see its purpose. Indeed, you would probably welcome innovations where you could see the obvious benefits. All in all, therefore, you would generally fit best into those work environments where changes were usually gradual and evolutionary.
Extroversion

Your Extroversion scale score of 3 indicates that you are generally more of an introvert rather than an extrovert and that when dealing with other people you could sometimes be seen as rather reserved. Indeed, you might not enjoy a job that required you to initiate social contacts with lots of unfamiliar people, so you might not be very suited to dealing with lots of customers who wanted your advice.

You would probably tend to approach your duties in a calm and considered way which means that you could carry out repetitive and routine tasks to a high standard. As you would probably value steadiness and some predictability at work you would be likely to enjoy any role that required a measured approach rather than an impulsive and ever-changing environment. This could mean that you disliked some elements of working in a very hectic B&Q store at peak times.
Emotional Stability

Your score of 8 on the Emotional Stability scale suggests that you are generally a fairly confident and optimistic person who would express your thoughts and ideas openly in most situations. You have quite a strong character which means that you could probably be quite assertive if you thought that you needed to be.

You're likely to be quite enthusiastic and would probably approach your work with a fair degree of ambition. You would probably be fairly decisive in most situations and if confronted with problems at work you would generally be able to make most decisions on your own without asking for help from your superiors. You are, in all probability, quite resistant to work related stress. Indeed, not only could you cope with most pressure, you might actually find that a limited amount of stress at work acted as a good motivating force.

Shave my Skin

Though it's the coldest time of year, Constable Terrace is very warm. I keep the window open, and last night had to kick the covers off. I Woke to the pleasant sound of the birds chirping outside, which is soon replaced by the buses running up and down Chancellor's Drive.

Before I left my room this morning I got the clippers out. I shaved my beard off and now look five years younger, so I'm told.

I had an appointment to go see the doctor, because of a long running infection. She took some skin samples, and gave me a prescription of antibiotics.

I thought it would be a good idea to go look for work at Norwich job centre. Sure, of course, it was a very bad idea. I then spent most of the day listening to radio 4 in the kitchen, and cooking myself pasta. By half past six I still haven't done any work :/

Did the World Stop Turing ?

I'm supposed to be writting my report on Alan Turing. Can't find a good source for algorithms.

Dishy on a Little Fishy

Things have been better today. I received a surprise message from someone. Not sure what to make of it yet, though it cheered me up immensely.

Went to study skills lecture. We had to discuss how well we thought a report on facial mapping was written. It was good, mainly because it gave me the chance to speak-out in front of a group; which I hate doing. But... hadn't the guy prepared a proper lecture or something ? The report was given to us to highlight key points at the start of the semester. Strangely, this morning I threw loads of paper from my room away, including my highlighted copy of this report. DOH!!

Borrowed a book on 'Latex' from the library. Sadly, I got excited to see rolling shelves. I've only seen rolling shelves on telly' before, and my little head was getting really excited to be using them heh wtf? I wondered how many people had been crushed for a joke in them. It's all so predictable Heh...

Now writing my report on Alan Turing. Outlining four of his most important published papers, three of his algorithms, his education and career. It has to be written in three A4 sheets; that's not possible.

Sources I will use are:
Wikipedia
Google Scholar.
The book 'Essential Turing'.

Today it became law not to take photgraphs of the police. I think that's right ? You can now be sent to jail for this ?

What Are You Going to DO ?

Might start posting again soon...
At the moment I really can't see any point in continuing with anything..
Things I have done, and things I'm supposed to have done..
Someone once said it was good to see a dream, I tried to see a dream. I imagined it, and tried to make it happen. It never happens !!! I seriously think I'm cursed and more...

Been playing with lego robots, programming them with Not Exactly 'c'.
Writting about Alan Turing using Latex.
Programming basic C++. G
etting very confused in math lectures err... I mean doing more integral calculus. Installed Texnix on my Eee, but in German :/ (It forces you to learn German.)

Maginde came 'round, I lent him loads of DVDs, we watched episode seven of 'Generation Kill' from HBO. He stood the whole time because he thinks I'm going to stab him ? :/ He says I'm like Jack the Ripper. Thanks, I hate myself as it is..

Morrisey was on the Johnathan Ross show. I hate it when people moan and write about women on bloggs, though it is tempting. Especially when the person you think of way too much, is someone who doesn't even like you.

#EOF...

Playing with LaTex

Today we had a workshop on using 'Latex', which is actually pronounced phonetically 'Lay-Tec'. Latex is good because- One ...It isn't Microsoft and Two.. it prints character fonts correctly, unlike Microsoft. It is like HTML, and used by mathematicians and scientists to create articles and reports.

LINK_ LaTex Website

Things must be bad; how do I know? At the coffee shop, they made my coffee before even said what I wanted..Heh. Next time I will order something different. Keep them on there toes.

Around campus people get confussed and are always asking me if I'm a student or lecturer, I guess because of the beard. Also, while I was waiting outside the computer lab' some dude was either being friendly or quizzing me on what subject I was studying :/ Once I told him I was a 'year zero' he soon lost interest Hahah !!! He left saying, "enjoy your lecture." Actually I found-out there's a Dr. at UEA with the same name as me.

My most favourite computer name scanned this week goes to 'FlatRoundPoo' XD

On the bus home two students got on wearing pigs' heads. It was actually pretty good, and slightly sinister.

Might write a piece about registry hacking or WEP cracking.

Investing In People Since '89

Type Something Good Here

Thought I was going to get six hours of lectures about programming today. Instead we got a small talk on what programming languages exist. After we all went to the Zest the food place on campus and talked shit.

I caught the bus into the city to buy a monocular and another replacement power lead for my laptop. Sat as usual drinking coffee and playing with my EEE.

Wen t martial art lesson. I haven't been for some time, it was crap...After I walked Prince of Whales road to eat pizza chips. There were lots of people out for the night, I sat watching them and stufing my face. The
guy behind te cunter gave me more free stuff, he gave me a can of coke =D

Stood at the bus stop watching the timetable display reboot a cuple of times with WinXP. Did a bit of sanning while I waited. The bog has broken in my flat so when I rturned at 1 am I went to the loo in te wood outside. I could hear twigs break
and thought maybe someone was there. Suddenly a fox darted out of te wood and back, which was nice. I bet it was after one of the many rabbits that
sit on te grass everywhere you look here at UEA.( My wireless keyboard wont let me type propppper, I can't be arsed)

Be Seeing You No_6

It's A Tragedy

This blog has now officially turned into a moan-a-thon. To save my sanity I have decided to only speak to people when I'm spoken to. This way I will get more work done, and my train of thought won't be distracted.

I think some people have pretended not to see me, and also when they thought I hadn't seen them they crept past. But to my face they're friendly. Of course as a coincidence for the past few days we've accidentally been at the same place at the same time. On the bus I walked past someone who I like, but think they don't really want to be friends. As I walked past they pretend to look out of the bus window. But, maybe it's the other way 'round, they think I don't want to speak. I don't want to cramp people's style, so why do they bother to be nice...just be honest.

I had to write that, it keeps creeping into my thoughts.

WENT TO Progeny, bought a 1GB thumb drive to install BackTrack 3 on. Then went to drink coffee and do work. A elderly lady asked me questions about my EEE PC, I didn't do a very good job of explaining to her what it was al about. I couldn't explain anything without using jargon, she looked a bit puzzled. She said she had just done a course, 'Computers for te Terrified'..Heh Still, I think she might go buy one now.

Sat next to my table was someone from my college days. They are a mother now; lots of mothers and their babies meet at the coffee shop to chat. Not sure if she's realised who I am, I hope not :/

Got BT3 working of the thumb drive on my Asus. Fired-up Kismet and went for a walk around campus. Due to te cold my hand became clamped around the glossy little black box. I think I'm in love_

I can think of plenty of reasons to not speak to me ...LOL Hahaha!!!
Forget about it already... I can't !! I hope I haven't upset anybody

Can wait for tomorrow, a full day !!!
Thursday's Lectures

20 second boot

Cleaned Buddhist Centre, everyone was friendly.

Took leaflets to the learning shop

Read some work on texture mapping in film animation.#

Bought the Winter edition of 2600.

Bought an Asus 900A EEE PC

Had math lecture with new Math lecturer, (we did stuff that we had done previously, Integrals) The Greek nutter was there...

Nearly bought a book on 'Lifesaver Calculus'

Went with two friends after maths into the city. There were lots of people waiting to get onto the bus. Someone suggested we run the 100 yards to the other bus stop and get on before the crowds of people. What a suprise, us three nerds ran through campus and managed to miss two buses on the way. It was funny though. We went to eat noodles. I'm not sure about my fellow students, they can't even name what the command shell is in windows. And explain 'root' in terms of Microsoft. They better be joking :/

Must get Backtrack onto thumb drive

Mary Contrary.

I want to write something here, but I know it will be too depressing and self involved. Start of the new Uni' term has been ok, just a one hour lecture. But the people, I'm blanked everywhere. Even by people who seem to be my friend. I don't know what the fuck has gone wrong. Maybe they think I'm ignoring them, but evidence points to the contrary. Fuck, I've already said too much ...err.. forget that.. everything is marvelous, and I didn't nearly get into another fight, honest!!!

My student loan is in the bank, might buy a Asus EEE PC and another book on Calculas.

Knight takes Queen

There is a well known English saying, "Eat, Drink and be Merry; for tomorrow we might Die!!!"

I've been dead for three or four days, three I think ?

Managed to watch BladeRunner all the way through wthout falling asleep. It really is good.

I need a shower three days of bed makes M000 smelly !!

I want to go surfing :/

Nothing for you Here

Brenda the cleaner woke me this morning, as she entered my room. Lucky enough I was fully clothed. We wished each other happy new year and exchanged gossip. After checking Facebook, and listening to Scott Lockmans podcast, in which he is calling himself the King of Japanese podcast...Hahah!! I went to look if the new students had moved in yet. Instead I found Brend in th kitchen, where we lstened to some radio an chatted some more.

Later I went to buy biscuits and ended up at the Forum drinking coffee and looking for Math books. Came back to campus and bought som Thai sticky rice and chilli sauce. I'm now waiting fo mum to pick me up, I'm going back to Holt.

Dumb Question

For some reason I couldn't sleep... I got out of bed at 6 a.m. to shower and organize my stuff for going back to UEA. My bus would leave Holt at 7:05 am so I decided to watch 'The Wire- Series One', drinking tea.

It had been snowing outside and I was careful not to slip with my large army surplus kit bag on my back weighing me down. Stood at the bus stop with the real people that have to got to work everyday. Half way through the journey the bus stops and picks-up extra passengers. Suddenly a bus with a few people on-board becomes a bus with people having to stand. They had to stand partly because my bag had a seat all of its own, and nobody asked me to move it.

I went to help clean at the Buddhist Centre. Met Tom and Julian who both wished me happy new year. Tom had spent the Christmas visiting Prague and Polish Nazis Death camps.


I bought a rolling mat, some Nori and rice wine off of the market. I hope to be making some Sushi and learning to become a good cook soon.

Back at my room at UEA I checked my emails. I recieved an email telling me the database coursework had been returned an left on the undergradue pigeonholes. I was bricking it at expectig to find a low mark. Searchng the box of returned assignents I culd see people had been given 50%-60%, surely then I would get maybe 20% or sm crap. OMFG, I'm not sure how but I got 82%, I'm pretty chufed with that. But now wait to see hw badly I fucked-up Maths coursework and exam :/

Met Alex at 4pm to go see the film CHE at cinema city. We were slightly early so we drank tea in the bar. I asked Alex some direct personal questions that made him look visibly uncomfortable, which I probably shouldn't have done. I don't understand other people very well, and usually can only speak with one person at a time. I'm not good in groups. Alex a one point mentioned the syndrome Aspergers, I'm not sure if he was directing that comment at me, but I do have trouble relating to people. I blame the amount of drugs I did as a teenager.

Alex and I went to pay for our cinema tickets. I went first because I had my student card; Alex waived his card in the air at the cashier and spoke very quickly weaving the lies amongst the truth. Hence cheap tickets...

Because i hadn't slept at first I was drifting off into sleep and making strange snoring noises as I drifted in and out of consciousness. After awhile I got into the film and became more alive. It was obvious that everyone in the cinema watching thought of themselves as some kinda communist or revolutionary anarchist, I hate that. When the film ended some people said something in Spanish out loud. OK :/ In response I would have liked to have licked my eyes.

Alex didn't really want to but he followed me to Prince of Whales road to eat pizza. I ordered a 12" vegetarian with philipeanos to share. We sat watching the street and I tried to ask Alex more probing questions, it was useless trying to get information out of him. The pizza guy made the 12" and gave us a free 9" cheese pizza with extra grease. One of Alex's work colleagues and friends was walking past and came in to say hello. I think his name was John and had been a Computer Science student at UEA, doing artificial intelligence. He was friendly and seemed to be OK. I didn't speak much to him and continued to stuff my face with pizza.

We walked to Alex's house in the freezing night air. Drank tea at Alexs, then home on the bus.

Watched four more episodes of 'BRITS that Made the Modern World'. One about the first 3D computer game 'Elite'. The Cambridge students that made the game Elite used the Fibonacci sequence to fit more code into the limited Atom microcomputer's memory. The next programme was about Lotus formula one. The next the Harrier Jumpjet; the British RAF weren't so keen as the American Marines to buy the Harrier. Lastly the tilting train.

Went for a walk around Castle Acre today, then for coffee at what looked to be a beautiful country mansion. Unfortunately despite on my parents last visit the Hotel was allegedly ok, this time was different. There was a chav blonde girl on reception complete with naff tattooed wrist. They charged 1.95 pounds for what she tried to tell us was proper coffee. The coffee was presented well, in silver pots, but the coffee smelt and tasted rubbish, and was obviously instant. CRIMINALS!!! If you don't care about coffee, I don't care about you...heh only joking.

Sea View

Went to look at houses with my uncle and aunt. We ended-up walking the beach at Walcott. SO cold..



Watched documentary about the development of the mobile phone network in England. The competition between Racal-Vodaphone, who made military radio until that time and Cellnet BT.

Ignored

Spent Christmas and New Year with family, it was crap..
OK playing with my niece and nephew was ok and I didn't mind standing-up and sitting on my nephew's whoopee cushion for the thousandth time..but I did notice when ever I tried to speak to anyone I was met with one to five word answers, or, just totally ignored. Now sometimes I will mention something and then immediately someone else mentions the exact same thing.

Next year I will definitely not bother to hang around long after Christmas, I will make sure I do my own thing.

I was woken this morning by the sight of my mum standing at the bottom of my bed holding a pair of pants, "do these pants belong to you ?" wtf ? I grunted no, and went back to sleep.

Later we all wrapped-up warm to go watch the fireworks at the end of Cromer pier. There were lots of families and couples out to see the firework display and though cold the atmosphere pleasant. That was until some miserable twat started to complain that he couldn't see properly. The display was OK but meant nothing to me, I stood alone.

Fifteen minutes of fireworks and two hours to get out of the car park. When we all stood watching the fireworks everybody came together; when we left the car park it was survival of the fittest and now everyone, again was back to hating each other.

H A P P Y N E W Y E A R

A Book and Cover

I had such a good nights sleep back here in Holt. Lots of tea and biscuits and fantastic breakfast. Mum and I went to 'First Lost Property' and I got my keys back. We then went to my flat and I packed my bags for Christmas break. My mum saw Yuko's Christmas card and found it funny, it depicted a old lady ice skating and being flung around by her legs, with the caption 'At Christmas we like to Give Grandma some Exercise.' WWW

That's it, that's all I've done.. I might make some sushi ? or I could do Calculus__ Gosh, a world of possibilities !!! The network is vast and infinite

I'm liking the Google Hot Trends app' so funny watching what people google.

The Key to Success

Travelled the bus to the Cathedral. The Cathedral seemed to be very busy. The guy who has turrets or something was mumbling about how people only come to church at Christmas. The two lady ushers were on the door and always make me feel welcome. They tried to make polite conversation with me.

After the service it was coffee then home. When I arrived home I realised I had lost my keys. I went to tell security at the security lodge; there was a slim chance that I had left the keys in the lock to my room. Security informed me that it was £25 pounds to let me in. Before paying any money I went away and tried to get Shawn to answer the door but he was playing on his Xbox loud war games LOL.. Hmmm.. I ended up looking around campus in skips for stuff to breakin with.. On my search I found a digital multimeter a PSU a DVD drive and various electronics.

I recounted my tracks at the Cathedral and Marzanoes but nobody had my keys, I later managed to find the bus from this morning. Success he had handed to the keys to 'First Lost Property.' Unfortunately they will not be open until Monday.

I walked about killing time, and went to see Alex, maybe I could get my DVDs. Oh yeah, Alex was at work. I walked back into the city to go to the Cathedral Carol Service. Just as me and a bunch of other people arrived they shut the doors. I walked 'round to the side entrance a managed to get in. It took me awhile to find my singing voice, and a few of the carols I hadn't heard before. The place was packed and I wasn't the only sad act on my own.

After the Carol Service I walked to the cinema to watch the trailers. Alex was there and he spotted me from upstairs in the VIP Gallery area WWW He came down to chat and gave me chocolate gold coins. I told him about how I lost my keys and he very kindly offered to let me stay at his house.

After watching the trailers I walked about looking at the Christmas lights and pretending to be a tramp. I then spent sometime rolling over a large block of concrete stairs and doing leg stretches while I waited for my parents to pick me up.

I'm now back in Holt and watching lots of television.

Happily Ever After..

Yuko was supposed to be meeting me today to give back some DVDs. She later sent me a Txt saying she wasn't able to. I called Alex to ask for the DVDs he has of mine. For some reason it wasn't possible because he has to go work at the cinema or something.

Walked around Norwich, bought some food. I was walking to the supermarket to buy biscuits when I chanced upon a fight. Some guy was being attacked by two twats. I decided to intervene. While one was arguing with the bloke, who was on his own, I tryed to calm the other. I could smell the alcohol and he was asking me if I thought I was hard. A bus driver stopped and he was pulling at my elbow. I thought he thought I was one of the people fighting. He said, " get on the bus," and winked. The bloke being hassled got on the bus and I followed. With Twat1 banging on the bus window we drove back down the road where I had just walked. Hhehe.. it was strange, I was wondering to myself what the hell am I doing on this bus. heh!!

I then got the biscuit and went home, thinking about my little story for today.

THE EnD..

And We All Lived Happily Ever After.

Oh, I had a suprise visit from Yuko, she gave me a Christmas card and some noodles. I haven't had a Christmas card from someone for years, other than family. It made me happy, yes, happy, heh.. We watched some Japanese comedy and Yuko showed me a bizzare American Christian kids puppet programme 'The Junior Christian Science Bible Lesson'.

Another Depressing Heading, Worthless

Whilst speaking with my cleaner the Greek fool came over to tell her he was leaving. He told her about some boxes he had left in his room. She wished him well, and told him to take care of himself. After he had gone we went to have a look at his room. He had left torn boxes everywhere, with food all over the floor and desk. Old tins in the bathroom, the toilet had pubic hair and piss all over the bowl. I hope I never see him again.

Went to meet Steve at 10:30 at Dol che Vita (Sweet Life), we drank coffee and talked about maths and old television programmes. He asked me about my sister, and was she married. I told him no, and that she is a gay. He said, "oh, I'm sorry about that." I looked at him confussed.

Later I went into the City and after a coffee bumped into Yuko. I pretended to look at some magazines in a magazine shop and books in the Library, then we went for tea and cake at the Greenhouse. Yuko talked about her masters dissertation on women in India. After we travelled home on the bus, Yuko said she was going to her friend's house.

When I returned to my accommodation the electricity was off so I travelled back on the bus into the City. I walked to Cinema City to see what films were showing, I didn't like what I saw.

Walking away quickly, I then stood on a street corner for three hours in the rain. As I had time to kill, I practiced some surveillance on a building. I had the ideal spot standing in the porch of a church. I had complete observation of all exits and entry to the target building. It was ok until an elderly couple arrived. The church I was using was to hold an event, and the elderly couple had arrived early. They didn't seem to worried I was on my own, and standing in the dark with a scarf wrapped around my face. Infact, they thought I was waiting for the doors to open too. I managed to chat to the lady while I maintained my observation.

After three hours of waiting for nothing and nobody I then walked to Prince of Whales Road to go eat vegetarian pizza. On the bus home I held my head in my hands and kept stopping myself from mummbling 'basteds' to myself.

I'm now home and trying hard to keep my grip on reality. Remember, Happiness is a choice, allegedly. I'm so fucking tired of liars, I've got no time for them. Why is it impossible for me to make just one honest friend- I give-up.

Walking for Nonsense

Didn't have anything to do today 'cept maybe some mathematics calculus. I have no money, I was going to use my credit card, but the bank played another trick on me and fucked me over again. Even though I payed off the balance last time I checked, they added some interest without telling me and now it's interest upon interest and 2 quid turns into 30 quid.

So I'm not spending any money all I can do is use my pass to ride the bus into town. Thought I would go check when the Christmas service at the Cathedral was on from the schedule. I ended up walking very slowly around the Cathedral in meditation. I must have looked like a weirdo but nobody said anything, just coughed, whatever!! I continued my slow pace out of the Cathedral onto the streets. Walking a Little faster now, I found because of my peaceful slow pace I noticed my surroundings more and the intentions of other people. If that makes sense, I'm not prepared to explain anymore nonsense for you. :D

Met up with my parents outside the Forum. We had coffee, and they told me how they had been watching the local news yesterday and were shocked to see me on some old footage about a protest a year ago.
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Seriously Trust You_

Met with mum today, I walked to the bus station my head throbbing with toothache. I have been looking for a Barbie Umbrella as a Christmas gift to my niece. I really hate Barbie toys and everything about them but if that's what I'm told to get I will. The other day I went to Toys 'r' Us, but had to walk-out as they wanted me to leave my bag with them at the front desk. Being asked to leave my bag with people has started to happen more and more recently, after I was asked the very same thing at the Library. Mum and I did Christmas shopping and she also bought me loads of painkillers. I have absolutely no money left. If I could remember my pin code for my credit card then I would use that. After a cocktail of prescription drugs I am feelling much better.

I'm really angry with many people I know, and it's strange because even though I like them, when I think too much about my shitty life and how it isn't what I want, I get angry and stop myself from breaking my fist against the wall. I have many hurdles to overcome within my life.

It pain's me to say it, but, if I've trusted you; then I considered you intelligent enough to keep quiet, but I don't think you have been. There's no nice way of saying this but, "SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!"


I realise how dodgy this post looks. But it's just an over reaction to some minor issues. Heh ...73

Choose Maths not People

I've been working and worrying about my coursework assignments of late. When I worry I start to buy lots of books. So far I have bought two new books on Calculus, and a load of Cisco books from Oxfam. I have four days to learn the first part of my maths course.




This is a new blog started by my friend. It's in connection to her website:

Fun Stuff to do with your Children from the Tickety-Boo Site

Tickety-Boo Designs

Baader Meinhof Complex

Don't imagine that you knew them..

Attacked Again

It snowed, I got attacked by a twat.

I've been just thinking about databases and trying to forget everything else.
The Greek idiot is spitting at me when I walk out of the building.
Whenever I remember, I get so fucking angry!! I have started drinking Guinness before bed. I think Bigm000 might be going to bed permanently.

Unacceptable

Whenever you get told off by human resources at work, they will usually tell you that, "this is unacceptable!!!" Just recently for the last couple of days, I have been very unacceptable. I will become better and realise some of the things I think and do must not happen any longer. Bad M000!!! I went to the army surplus to buy lots of green German military clothing.

I noticed that the girl from the coffee shop was at the bus stop, but she didn't get-on, but, she walked past me as I got off the bus at the UEA.

I went to see 'Ghost World' today at the Odeon. It was entertaining but nothing great.

Alex and Yuko came to see me tonight. Alex has planned a dinner party thingy for tomorrow. I'm not sure if I should go. I have work to do, but I don't want to upset Alex if I haven't already. I'm such an indecisive tit.

Stay Away

Norwich Cathedral have a tactic of putting old people on guard, whilst Church services are in progress. Their main task is to meet and greet visitors to the Cathedral. Unfortunately what they actually do is pretend they don't know who you are, and try their best to persuade you not to go inside.

(click) Here is some Information about some Nice Cheese

I went to Marks and Spencer to buy some crackers and cheese. I picked-up the first wedge of Stilton I saw, then very quickly put it back after realising my mistake. It cost 11 quid. I also bumped into Shawn who has got himself a weekend job. From what I could see his job consists of wearing bad clothes and having to be friendly to TWATS, including me.

Bored Control

A lady in the Cathedral stopped me to talk about the 'Battle of Britain' lace that's on display. I already knew everything about the lace depicting spitfires and the bombing of London, but felt that she really needed someone to tell. So I pretended to be interested until some Americans came and took over.

Nearly another fight in the street today.

Just recently I have been mumbling German words on the bus, yes OK, that's not good. But today, on my way home a large group of German people boarded. Filling the air with what German people do.

I know all this might sound strange, but just recently I'm finding it hard to bite my lip and stay silent.
Spent two hours youtubing Ian Curtis.

I've heard it before, and I heard someone else say it today, "Happiness is a choice."
In extreme situations like the orphans in Romania; is happiness still a choice ? No, I don't think so...but maybe in Norwich England; where we can find distractions from our worries, happiness for ourselves maybe a choice.


I sometimes worry that someone will ask me what I'm thinking while I ride the bus home. It isn't pretty..

Marked Marked Man

For some reason my cheap printer didn't include a USB2 cable. You have to purchase it separately. So I spent more money today buying USB cable, printing paper, a mini fridge and fish 'n' chips. Hahaha!!!

The mini fridge, though very un-green of me, is so good. one-day I will be able to use it to transport vaccines to needy people in remote areas, on my motorcycle. At the moment I'm using it to store cheese and two pints of milk.

Had a look in the cathedral. There seemed to be some kind of meeting going on. Someone had asked the panel of religious people (not sure who they were, think vicar / nuns) about same sex partners. I appeared from the back of the seated crowd, and I think scared them, as suddenly they decided the meeting was over. I guess they probably thought I was from the gay mafia, come to make sure they said the right thing.

Been looking around Japan resort in Second Life recently..there's nobody there, like first life. I typed this last sentence with my feet.

A Breath of Fresh Metta

(Click) The Soup Nazi (Click) The Best Seinfeld Episode...




Woke up late at 9:30, too late to go to math lecture. Pooo!!! Took a shower and dressed to go into the city. Went to the Buddhist Centre, for meditation lesson. Met someone new, a guy called Andrew. Andrew has previously been to UEA and done a master's degree in Biology. Tom was trying to get people who volunteer at the centre, to give him a quote on why volunteering is such a good idea. I would have tried to help him, but anything with my name on will instantly loose all credibility and value.

Despite spending some time talking about not buying material stuff; I bought a cheap printer for 35 Squid. I carried the printer home on the bus trying not to kneecap people on the way. errr.. well I didn't try too hard...obviously!!

Dumped my printer in my room, then went to see a guy at the 'Dean of Student's Office.' Ian Gillespie was just about to go home, but, very kindly returned to his office to discuss my problems. He listened and gave me another contact detail. It looks like I will have to try and swap rooms. Then hopefully I will be away from nutjob.

For dinner I ate five dohnuts.

Drowning the Blind

Travelled home to restock on DVDs, books and CDs, and do some clothes washing. Dad said I could have his bike so I took it for a test ride down the end of the road and back again. If I find somewhere to put it I will happily take it off his hands.

My parents gave me a lift back to the UEA just in time to go see the film showing of 'Occupation 101.' I recognised some people from 'Stop the War' there but didn't say hello. I returned to my room alone to eat humus and stilton crackers.

Drinking coffee, eating dohnuts. Hugging pillows. Listening to Chinese people talk. Drinking monkey tea. Eating crackers and stilton. Reading about PKCS#12.


( Click) Please come join me for Monkey Tea ? ( Click )

Seven Three Japanda

There are no lectures this week 'cept math. Went to the 'Copper Kettle' for a vegetarian breakfast. I plagiarised some text from a magazine about Microsoft registery forensics. Came home watched some crap online, browsed Facebook. Because this week at UEA it's a reading week, Japanda Lesson was cancelled. I intended to leave my room for 10 minutes; but, ended-up riding the busses, walking the streets eating junk food. Came home with a packet of biscuits and two tubes of Pringles.


Here's a picture of a Vampire monkey:

Smeg Head

I got pushed and shouted at again today.

More Soup?

I actually made some applications for work today. Just small part-time work, though I get the impression I may have left things too late. I definitely need some money, I'm totally skint.

Spent some time throwing away old letters from old jobs. After everything was tidy I went to heat some soup for tonight's bonfire and fireworks. I had just bought a cheap new flask, but pouring the soup into the flask was tricky. Most of the soup went over the kitchen sink.

At six o'clock I stood outside and waited for Kuyo to arrive. No big surprise, but it was raining outside and slightly chilly.

I'm such a fool, under my instruction we walked to Eaton park not Earlham. Obviously as we approached Eaton park I realised I had got it wrong. Yuko I think knew but didn't say anything, thinking maybe I knew something she didn't. Hahah!! no chance. We walked back into campus, where Yuko took some pictures of me with my inverted umbrella and the UEA with fireworks in the background which just looked like a picture of UEA on fire.

Finally finding the right place we spent some time walking in the rain and mud. We followed a procession of people holding large puppet skeletons and banging drums down to the bonfire. As we waited kids were chanting, "burn him!!" After a long wait they finally set the fire. It wasn't very good. We looked around the fair which was crap.

When the fireworks finally started it was actually, impressive. Though the idea that I was still in Norwich spoilt it. Some dude kept speaking over a Tanoy system, which made him sound like Alan Partridge. After the fireworks we walked back-out through the mud, where I thanked Yuko and headed home, cold, wet and covered in mud.

Crying Shame?

I intended to get a job today. Traveled into the city. My aim was to use the buses to get to a business estate where the company offering work was located. Though, when I studied the bus timetable, I realised, it would have been impossible for me to travel in early enough in the morning, ready to start work...6am. Must find something closer.

My wish to cry was granted. It came in the form of a dream. I dreamt I was able to cry, it felt like such a relief.

I watched 'The Ipcress File,' and googled for 'flower dogs,' go on do it!!! I promise you will be amused.

Haven't been on Second Life for awhile. I miss my friends err... friend.

No Pay Today

After my lectures today I went to the city, sat drinking coffee, and played with Excel spreadsheets on my laptop. I thought I might collapse from lack of food so I bought fish and chips. I'm not usually buying chips since the great chip eating experiment of 2007. Where after work I would buy chips everyday until my stomach started to wobble. I sat in the park eating my dry fish and greasy chips, watching the street people and chavs playing football.

Got a book from the Library, 'Object oriented Analysis'. Soon I will be able to catagories every living thing, and build a robotic army.

I wasn't upto seeing anyone today; this, plus having work to do, made me miss Japan Soc' lesson and meditation class.

Shaun was helping me install some software on my lappy when the flat buzzer went. We went to investigate. It was Yuko and Alex, I was in one of my moods, hence not going out. I was really pleased to see them, but I think they thought otherwise. I'm sure I gave them the wrong impression. Sometimes I just can't snap-out of it.

When Yuko and Alex left I went for a run. I thought this might help, but after the run I was still unfocused. I ran alone, I'm sick of coming last place. I sat naked for awhile crouched in the foetal position.

Coincidences Occuring

I wasn't going to leave my room today. Just listen to Off the hook and Adam and Joe show.

I picked-up my calculator to make a calculation only to find the battery was dead. It's not surprising since I haven't used it for, like, four years. I went to buy some batteries but the campus shop was closed, so I caught the bus into the city. Could this be the most geekiest thing I have ever done? Buying batteries for my calculator on a Saturday night !!! I bumped into an old work colleague who is working as security at Chapafields, we had a brief conversation about what work we both do now. After purchasing some batteries from the petrol station I went for coffee at Marzanos.

I bought the latest edition of 2600 from borders, and caught the next bus home. Looking at the top deck I noticed Yuko. Sitting with Yuko I felt a bit embarrassed as I hadn't washed or dressed properly, I only expected to be outside for ten minutes max!!! I was a little scared she would say no, but I invited Yuko back to my room to watch a Allan Partridge DVD. After we watched a few episodes I offered to walk Yuko home, but she said she would be OK. I hope she made it back safely..

Link: New Improved peachFuzzer.

Link: Security Conference, Tokyo

The Price is Right...

Went to my math leacture. The crazy Greek person was there. I could feel him staring at me from across the leacture theatre. I didn't look, and got stuck in to the math. At the end I spoke to some others on my course about him. They too have had trouble with him. What the fuck is wrong with him?

I saw Shaun in the campus shop, another of my flat mates. Don't think it would be wise to explain what Shaun has done previously before University, but he has spent some time in the military, in Iraq. We walked back to the flat together. The Islamic Centre across the road had set-up a stall selling nuts and drinks. We went over to have a look. They welcomed us, and explained that they sold to the Islamic community. The stuff they were selling was cheap. I bought some mango juice for a quid, which is good for English prices. Shaun got to practice some of his Arabic.

Caught the bus early into the city to get presents for my nephew and niece, plus, a birthday card for my sister. I returned to campus just in time to receive her call, telling me they had arrived and were waiting in the car park. When I got to the car park they weren't there, so I waited for their return. They had gone to look around the Sainsbury centre and the Henry Moore sculpture. My Nephew seemed excited to see me. Carrying my nephew on my back we walked to my room. My sister and her partner seemed to like the room, but the kids were wondering why it was so small, Heh.

After tea we left to go have lunch at the Greenhouse. My sister and I had the vegetarian paella, Fi, soup, and the kids some salad, Peta bread and hummus. After some shopping we returned, and we said goodbye.

Later I met with Alex to go to the 'International Students Sushi Night'. We went to buy drink from the shop, I bought some fair trade Chardonnay. Alex had his usual 'Merry Down'. We were a bit early so we walked about for awhile, then joined the queue for the party. Nobody else seemed to have brought drink with them, so I made Alex put my bottle in his bag. Someone was walking about taking photos; I hate that.

Entering the party seemed to be a process not unlike passport control. After showing ID a number of question were asked, name, where are you from? Somehow saying, Norwich or, here, didn't register that I was from England. Alex and I sat down and after some soup, the sushi lesson began.

A guy called Adrian acted as translator for a cute Japanese student who showed us how to make sushi. Another girl of about 20 arrived and started to touch-up Alex under the table. She could only be described as being sexually aggressive, Alex got caught in a sarcastic argument with her. Then Alex gave back as good as he got, and some more. For some reason she turned to me and asked what course I was doing? And am I afraid of her? I just said yes and continued on with my life. By this time Alex and I thought it would be best to break-out the booze, just before the lesson in origami. I get the feeling that Hiro thought we might be drunk, as he came over with some green tea for us to drink, and possibly sober-up.

Towards the end of the evening the crazy woman was pushing herself up against me whilst clearing the table. I got-up for the group photo. When I was talking to a Japanese girl I had met previously the crazy woman shoulder barged into her from behind. I managed to stand between them so that she couldn't do it again.

Alex invited Yuko over to my room. The rest of the night was spent watching Black Adder DVD and Peepshow. We walked Yuko home, then I walked to Alex's and back. I almost felt normal, I was walking home at 2 in the morning after having drunk alcohol..I think that's what normal people do.. isn't it ?

Touch me, well I'm Sick...

My Information Systems lecturer decided to move the Friday lecture to today. Unfortunately I didn't get the email telling us what room to go to and at what time.

I helped at the Buddhist Centre cleaning and was asked if I would like to go on retreat this weekend. I don't think I can spare the money. I spent most of the day reading math and drinking coffee.

The Greek person in my flat, who is living across the hall, has been acting strange. He has been ignoring me, which, isn't something to get stressed about, But, I just keep saying hello and being friendly. On Sunday when his girlfriend was over, I happened to walk into the kitchen where they were preparing food. I said hello, and he spoke back to me instead of ignoring me. He was only friendly because his girlfriend was there. Today I came from my room just as he entered the hall. I had a plate with left-overs of fish, because of the last time I walked past him in the hall I had to get-out of the way to let him pass, I made a joke of the situation by putting my back against the wall, in an exaggerated fashion to let him pass. He then started to say if I keep provoking him he will hit me, I asked him what was wrong? but he won't explain what I have done. I then went to the kitchen to clear my plate. Steph was in the kitchen and heard everything. Once before he was complaining that a Chinese person hit him in the head with their bag. He was talking about going to a solicitor; the guy isn't all there.

Garlic Bread !!!

I've been looking for a part-time job. I went to ASDA to ask about work, and also did some shopping. While waiting to pay for my shopping I watched the automated self service checkouts. Unsurprisingly one of the terminals wasn't working, about four members of staff stood around it wondering what to do. I quizzed the lady serving me about how often they broke, she started to become suspicious and wanted to know why I was so interested. I explained that I was studying information systems at University.

Back in Norwich it was a nice warm day, lots of people, shopping at the European market and farmer stalls. I managed to mindfully walk without incident through the crowds of people, up until a point when a man just started shouting at me. He had walked in front of me and said sorry. I just continued to walk on. He then started shouting sorry over and over. He then said that I looked at him as if he was an alien and when do I come from ? And I should have said sorry to him. I told him to calm down. I then sat down outside the shop next into which he had gone. At the same time as I got up from my seat, he came out of the shop. He then started to shout at me about, am I following him !! I asked if he was o.k. and maybe he should go see a doctor. I then reported him to the police, which wont do much, but it made me feel better.

Maybe I will say sorry to him now, here in this blog. IM SORRY YOU ARE AN IDIOT!!!

Irashiamasu

Did some work on excel spreadsheets, and talked more about Information Systems. At seven O'clock Alex came to Constable Terrace (where I'm living) we bought some drink from the campus shop, then went to the welcome party of the Japan Society. Alex knew a few others also attending. We ate Japanese food and talked to Japanese people. I had a good time, but things may have been different if Alex hadn't been there, it's always good to have backup.. I always accuse Alex of being a government agent; he has never denied it. Hahah!!! And he accurately guessed some of my Internet viewing habits. After the party we walked Yuko home to the UEA Village.

Later just as I was getting ready for bed, the fire alarm started. We all stood outside in the moonlite sky in our pyjamas and night gowns, me, bare foot with jeans and a t-shirt, it was a little cold.

EDO

Went to see a film being shown by Norwich Stop the War. It was the film documentary of the protests outside the EDO factory in Brighton. Andy Street was there, one of the main organizers. Also, Alex appeared from out of the blue, as he sometimes does. As Alex and I spoke I mentioned Japan Society, as it happens there was a Japanese Lady sat next to me, and she told us that she also was going to the welcome party tomorrow. After the film, Alex, Yuko and I went to the graduate bar to talk. At the grad-bar we met with more Japanese people, including Hisashi who was my teacher at the Japanese language lesson. Alex did a good job of creating conversation. If it was left to me there would probably been many lull periods..DUH!! we learnt new Japanese word for messy or dirty...bachi!!!

Dress for Success

I've been buying new clothes, due to the fact that after wearing combats for a week, I suddenly realised I have no trousers to wear. So really what I'm saying is, "why the fuck have people stopped walking into me just because I'm wearing new trainers and jeans, and I shaved my beard off !!!" Just a little observation of mine. People are dumb!!!

In today's lecture they spent bloody ages explaining Logarithms. My old 'AS' revision book managed, half a page, to explain Log laws. nuff said..

Yesterday I attended the Japan Society Language lesson. There was lots of nice people. One by one we stood-up and introduced ourselves in Japanese. The guy who taught me, gave me a piece of paper with the introduction written-out. Unfortunately he wrote it in Kana, so I just said my name and pleased to meet you as my kana isn't that strong to just read fluently. There was a young girl attending, she was very brave and introduced herself like everyone else.

Morning Run

Went for a run at 6am. It was still dark outside, I couldn't really see where I was going. I started off energetically across the flat patch of grass outside, forgetting that there's a one foot drop where the grass meets the road. This actually turned-out to be a good thing. As I felt myself drop I performed zenpo kaiten (like a forward roll) and rolled out to carry on running. I continued around the lake buggering over at least a further four times in the mud. After, I took a shower, caked in mud.

One of the other students in my flat commented in the kitchen about the 'Silence of the Lamb' book series. She had just finished reading them all. I was forced to read 'Red Dragon' by a friend, and so, happily I was able to agree it was an awesome book.

I've sat in all day watching the news and Black Adder on DVD. I want to get the film '21'. Looks like it could be good.

Hmmm... might go for a walk around the lake, plan a safer route.

Pairs of Teeth

Got-up 8:45 am, after a shower I was in math lecture by 9am, Awesome...
built a computer, learnt something about information systems
I'm glad to be doing what I want, but I still feel CURSED!!!

I spent some time trying to cry, but I can't do it.

Maths for Dummies

Before traveling into Norwich City centre I thought it might be wise to purchase a yearly bus pass. After locating the campus travel shop I found it wasn't open yet. Six other people all waited for the shop to open in silence. Finally we all entered me being last. Two people serving and only one till in operation. The lady whos chip 'n' pin terminal wasn't working kept calling a special troubleshoot hotline. After waiting for eternity I was served, and charged £148 for my pass. Half an hour wait for what should have been five minutes at the very least.

I caught the next bus into Norwich where the driver didn't even really look at the pass, just nodded. I walked to the Buddhist centre to find Sudakani and Pandmadaka and Julian and all the rest cleaning. The was another order member helping today that hadn't previously. I recognised him from the Oriental Arts Centre where he says he practices Karate. After coffee and cake I caught the bus back to listen to a math lecture.

The math lecture was awful, it was very basic. Though i shouldn't open my big mouth as it may get very difficult very suddenly. I sat quietly listening. I thing part of it is that there are many international students, so they start from the basics...the very basics..think rational numbers and real numbers. After, i tried to ask the lecturer a question about last weeks test to see what level we are at. He wasn't very helpful.

I walked about the science and mathematics schools for awhile looking for the pigeon holes used for mail delivery. I then went to the main post room to see if anything had been delivered from home. nothing...

Sad as it is, I went back into the city and bought a one person cafetiere and some ground coffee.

Cherie Stare

According to my timetable I had a Lab sesson today. I left it fairly late before I decided to find which room I had to be in. Firstly I went to the completely wrong building, then, when I did find the right room there was a notice, saying, this session will now be held in SCI120. On the way I bumped into someone on the same course who told me everything had changed and we had to be in the Lab for 10am. Instead i went for coffee where i met the guy from Malaysia (who has never heard of hack in the box...blw) I showed him some of the new books I had bought, which he then decided he had better buy them too. 10 minutes later he returned with a grin and one new text book. He pulled-out a to-do list, and crossed off one item, it looked to be a long list. Apparently as part of his visa he has to report to the police.

Three of us walked to the computer lab and met with the others. Nobody turned-up to tell us what to do, so we just sat cheking email. After an hour of this I left to go back to my room.

Later on in the evening I went to look around the sqaure where a local news crew were interviewing students about debt. I walked right behind them hoping to get on television. There seemed to be lots of security and police about. Cherie Blair was on campus for the Literary festival. I found the room in Union house where Adrian Ramsay was giving a talk at the first term's meeting of the Greenparty. It was good though he had to speak loadly over the drums being set-up from in the LCR.

I went to do some late-night food shopping, and I've eat lots of doughnuts.

The Return of Book Boy_

I finally received part of the payment of my Student loan. As soon as I woke-up this morning, I immediately went to the campus bookshop to buy 'Basic Information Systems Analysis and Design' by Myrvin Chester and Avtar Athwall, £39.99 (FUCK!!) I also bought 'Foundation math' Anthony Croft and Robert Davison. The math book came with a electronic resource and cost £31.99 (DOUBLE FUCK!!) I returned to my room. After unwrapping the math book from its cellophane I found it's at the same standard as GCSE. I hope they will be teaching us something abit more challenging.

I had coffee and two slices of pizza in the 'Zest' student canteen. I thought these places were supposed to be cheap. It is not!

I've been speaking with a Greek guy in my flat, who seems to really hate Muslims. It's actually quite funny. The Greek guy has met a Japanese girl on campus, and when I returned to find them in the kitchen I introduced myself, in what I consider to be perfect Japanese. Hahah!! the look on his face, '1 point' to the nerd!! YAY!! Or should that be, 'point at the nerd!!' Booo!!!

Dead Tooth

Woke up late, around 8:30, walked to the Community Hospital Dental Practice, stopping at the Tesco Express for orange and to use the cash machine.

Waited about half an hour for my treatment. After an x-ray, it was decided that two of my teeth were dead. Root canal surgery on one tooth and prescription of antibiotics, at a charge of 16 quid. The lady dentist kept talking about the puss EWW!! I was just in time to get back for a lecture on the history of computing.

While waiting in the hall for my lecture a girl spoke to me, and I couldn't answer because of the injection, just my luck.

The guy taking the lecture wore an Amnesty International T-shirt, this all I noticed. He asked everyone to, one by one, introduce themselves and about what they have been doing previously, "and if you've been in prison just make something up," for some reason everyone laughed at that. So, I had to introduce myself with a numb face and now he thinks I must have some speech impediment. Oh yeah, I half lied, I said I have been working as an electronics engineer, not, claiming free money and laying in bed. During his talk he mentioned, Von Neumann, but not Hiroshima; but he did mention Turing being hounded to his death, which was good.

After I went to find the local chemist was closed and will be for the rest of the week. Walked into the city via Unthank Road and bought the antibiotics from a chemist there, for 7 quid. It was late in the day and I couldn't find a newspaper shop that still had a copy the Guardian anywhere; the people in Marizamom kindly gave me their copy, with the technology issue I like.

Saw a guy who is on my course and just arrived from Malaysia Kuala Lumpa, that's so good. next time I see him I will ask if he attended Hack in the Box. Sat with some school girls back to Holt on the bus. When I got back home in Holt I gathered some more maths books to take back with me. Watched a Eastenders and Friends with my dad, then latter they gave me a lift back to University. My other flatmates were sitting in the kitchen and seemed to be having a discussion about mange dogs, and the RSPCA. Saw my parents off, and watched the news online Iplayer.

Face ROTT32

Couldn't sleep my face has swollen-up with a abscess. I went to the Library to collect my campus card, complete with beardy photo.

I've tried to make a dentist appointment at the Mediacl Centre, but they said the quickest they could see me would be the 10 October, they're over-subscribed. They gave me directions to the Siskin centre instead.

Walked to the Siskin centre where they said they could only accept emergency appointments. I said that it was an emergency appointment, then they said ok and took my details, telling me to return tomorrow at 10 am. walked back to campus in pain, arriving just in time to take-part in a lipreading test.

We sat in the lecture theatre as about fifty clips of someone speaking one word in silence was shown. We did about three sets of these, firstly, recognise the word, then, recognise the constanent, then, sets of spoken vowels. I sat with a guy on my course who looked as if he gave-up after the first round, and kept falling asleep.

I went to look in the lCR at the Socmart, and put my name down for the FWBO Buddhist group, the green party and Stop the war, and also the Japan society. I think I may have given some people the incorrect email address.

I tried the campus coffee shop they short changed me five pounds, change from a ten pound note. But they didn't argue after I challenged them. Wont sleep well again tonight

The day started well and early. I woke-up about 5am and went for a run around the lake. There wasn't many people about except Muslims going to the Islamic centre. After my run I went to see how many people were in the SportsPark Gym, 6am seems to be a good time to go. Not too busy..

At 9am I went to another of the many introductory talk given by Dr Ben Millner. he just outlined the structure of our course and showed some graphs about who is doing what. Then also today I have registered for the Foundation Basic maths which is like A level crammed into one year. I also had one lab session and a talk by the head of research telling us what research the University is doing.

Searching for song titles by recognising the musical signature

Facial recognition and Lipreading

Urban modelling

Data mining Forensics

Modeling Plant Growth (Virtual Plants)

Then unfortunately the security and local police arrived to give a talk on site security.
I have the worst toothache. I went to the local Pharmacist to buy Clove oil, it doesn't really help much. I then caught the bus into the City to eat noodle. The Forum coffee shop seemed to be closed as there was some Indian dancers outside and they were selling plastic elephants ? wtf...don't ask me... A little man on the door wearing an ear piece told me I couldn't go inside.

The Special Zero Year, Lab Rats...

I've managed to get my arse into gear and move into Constable Terrace. It took two trips to move all my stuff in, and I still have loads of books waiting at home.

It took awhile to get a networked computer running. First you need to be issued a User/Pass to register your NIC's mac address with the system.

When I first arrived to collect my key I was greeted on the door by police handing-out leaflets and advice about property theft. Quite frankly the police are the last people I want to see on arrival with their friendly pepper spray and fake smile. After some queueing I was asked to sign my residence license and given a pack containing a dimple key (Good :) and a temporary swipe card.

My room is situated close to the Sainsbury centre and also the Islamic Centre. There's a bus-stop just outside my window, I have already heard some interested conversations from the people waiting for a bus.

So far I have attended some introductory talks by the director and head of the computer school. it seems that my course, being the first year to run, is special; there seems to be just nineteen of us.

I'm off for an early morning run around the lake..Thanks for sharing!!

Sensei Kanojo

Many things happened, I'm a bit pissed-off!!!!

All day I have had this song by the Manics running through my head...
It was written as a reaction to the glorification of serial killers in film and literature.

DIY for Dead People

Went house hunting with my Uncle and Auntie. The first place we looked at was an old cottage set on it's own in the country. The cottage was unoccupied. As we all got out of the car to take a look around, I couldn't help imagine we were in a film. Like a Comedy Strip Horror film; we all laughed and chatted as dark forces lay in wait. There was quite abit of land with two old barns, as we looked inside one barn a large white Owl escaped.

We looked at other places but nothing worth mentioning. The woman's voice on my Uncles sat-nav was rather fun. If you took a wrong turn her voice would gradually sound more angry.

Wondering in Wells-Next-the-Sea

Today we played back garden Ping-Pong, and went for a beach walk at Wells-Next-the-Sea. Not much happend just fresh sea air, oh, and a seagull managed a direct hit to the side of my face.

See the Sea

Another day and another walk. This time starting from West Runton, over the Beeston Bump, and back again. Townies might make the mistake of walking along the beach, it's better to walk along the cliff top.

During World War II the Beeston Bump was a 'Signals Intelligence site'. Operated by a range of agencies including Marconi Company and the Foreign office. Known as a 'Y-Station' signals would be collected and if encrypted sent to Bletchley park or Room 40 in London for decoding.

As Free as the Wind Blows

My parents cancelled their camping weekend because of the strange weather we're experiencing. So instead, my uncle and aunty have come to visit.

Today we went for a walk at How Hill, part of the Norfolk Broads. The weather was nice, and there was a coach load of French tourists. I had a look in the old Marshman's cottage, 'Toad Hole cottage'. There was a story about how in olden-times people liked to have toads in their gardens, because they got rid of the slugs. So, people would get toads and put them in their garden. Of course, if a woman was found to be keeping a toad as a pet, she would have been accused of witchcraft and hung.

In the picture below you can see a pair of boots, next to the fire place. I was alittle tempted to exchange my old walking boots, for those in the picture..actually I might have had the waist coat as well; they can keep the socks...Hahaah!!!

There's a documentary on myspace Edge Tv, about the Gary McKinnon case...
Link: Gary McKinnon

The Hentai Tramp..

Read in the Guardian newspaper today about WikiGenes, a new style Wiki that allows users to click on text and see who the author was. Hopefully giving the piece an air of authority and trust. Also there was an article mentioning 'The Last Hope'. The guy from MythBusters (Adam Savage)told everyone at the conference that the programme, MythBusters, wouldn't make an episode on RFID because 'Discovery Channel' wouldn't allow them to. This turned out to be untrue and Adam has had to now retract his statement AWWW!!! :D The was also some article on website flipping.

Drank coffee in Bar Manzanos, or what ever you call it; the one in the Forum. I made a little thumb sketch of one of the waitresses that work there; she had a nice face with good cheek bones. I saw Alex, who I might add was looking very well, unfortunately he didn't see me and I'm not the kind of person to shout across a crowded room.

I spent some time sitting in the park. I was thinking about how it would be a bad thing to hit people back in the street. I was watching people in the park, and asking myself the question, would I be happy to watch them die.errr.. I finally saw reason and walked back into the City centre to go eat noodles.

Wasted alot of time in the noodle place listening to the Chinese pop music that they play, sat watching people pass on the street and thinking about the value of money and status in society, utter rubbish really... I won't say more, hehe, I'm such a fool.

Wondered down to the river, and as usual there were only drunk people to be found. I spoke to a drunk tramp for abit; the second person to speak to me today. We walked together out of Cathedral Close and I left him shouting at an illegally parked 4x4.

I had a good martial arts lesson and was given 9th Kyu. I was happy about this, as now I don't have to wear that silly white belt. HOORAH!!!

Fire, Snore with Me_

At the Buddhist centre today, there was another person dressed in the same cloths as me. After jokingly bringing this to his attention, he said, " yeah, I'm currently moving house." Booo YAHHH!!!.. he was wearing his old clothes to move house : /

Hahhah!!

I had to go into Marks and Spencers to look for stuff for University, didn't see anything i liked. But the prices were cheap, so I'll probably just get any old stuff..

drank coffee, ate noodles, walked in the rain...

Watched: Twin Peaks - Fire Walk With Me